To my love

I wish I would have asked more questions

to get to know you better

I wanted to preserve you

protect you

not destroy, not open every door

or break down every wall by force

I wanted you to breathe

to sit in silence and ask the right questions

I tried to keep my words quick

I wanted you to know you were still alive

I wanted you to know you are not alone

I might have wanted to know that someone loves me, somewhere, sometimes

I promise myself now to be forever angry

for not being included

for not being trusted

for inviting others unfamiliar

and

for giving up on us